Monday, November 10, 2008

MONTH #10: August 18 - September 17, 2008

MoniKitchen
Lemon Pepper Chicken
1 lb. boneless, skinless chicken breast, cut into strips
1 medium onion, chopped
1 large carrot, sliced
1 garlic clove, minced
1 T margarine
1 T cornstarch
1 14.5oz. can chicken broth
3 T lemon juice
1 C chopped broccoli
1/4 C minced fresh parsley
1/2 tsp salt
1 1/2 C uncooked instant rice
lemon pepper to taste

-Cook chicken, onion, carrot and garlic in margarine until chicken is light brown, about 5 minutes.
-In a bowl, combine cornstarch and broth. Stir in lemon juice, salt and rice.
-Add cornstarch mixture to skillet and bring to a boil.
-Reduce heat, add broccoli and parsley
-Cover and simmer 5-10min or until rice is tender.
-Season with lemon pepper to taste.
Serves 6
One Serving Contains:
261 calories
5g fat
70mg cholesterol
568mg sodium

Will You Go Out With Me?
Cubs game on Labor Day. We took the Metra in to the Loop and hopped on the Red Line. We got the biggest pizza-by-the-slice ever and headed into the game! It was a blah game, but a nice day. Then we walked around for a bit, hopped back on the Red Line to the Loop. We had 45min to kill before the next train so we grabbed a sandwich to eat at Giordano's!

That's Hilaaarious
Human Giant absolutely took the cake and summed up most of our laughter from this 10th month.

Good Talk
Chelsea's wedding was bittersweet as far as our marriage is concerned. It was great watching & being a part of one of my best friend's weddings only 9 months after our own. Remembering what that day felt like for me, but also reminded me of a happier time. Happiness I hadn't been feeling for most of the summer. But instead of feeling jealous and angry over this, I felt sad and the week after the wedding I was able to express my sadness in perhaps a bit more constructive way. Sure, it was nothing I hadn't said in some way before - but I think I get through to Tim when I speak calmly vs. upset.

The Good Life
Tim got a job as a Market Reporter at the Chicago Mercantile Exchange. So no more sales, and it's in the financial field which was his "dream." It's a huge global company with plenty of room for advancement. The only catch is it is very low pay. It'll be a year until he's making a decent salary, so more rough times ahead. But at least there's hope.

Marriage Epiphany
It has gotten to the point that I'm just doing this to myself. The past is so far in the past now, neither of us can do anything to change it. I've beat us both over the head about my resentment and Tim's response has been consistent and all he can do. Say he's sorry and that he understands. That the future will be different and better. It's time for me to accept that as much as Tim has accepted responsibility for his mistakes. The marriage is in my hands, if I keep beating it, I'll kill it - if I can accept it & nurture it, then it can go back to being in both of our hands.



3 comments:

Miss Organizized said...

I have a huge smile on my face after reading this!! Things truly take time to heal...and it takes time to see things from different perspectives. I think you have grown SO MUCH over these past few months. This wasn't a conclusion that you could've come to overnight or via anyone else's advice and observations. You had to walk this path by yourself. Well, by yourself with Tim and me and all of your friends and family walking just a few steps behind, making sure you were ok. But you made it and here you are about to embark on your second year of marriage together with a fresh outlook and another HUGE change. But it's all for the good, no, the GREAT! I'm so proud of you!!

Monica O'Neill said...

Yea! I mean, I still stand behind my need to be selfish for those few months and "go to a dark place" and think negatively. I know that doesn't sound healthy at all, but I needed to do that b/c otherwise I'd just be burrying those feelings and that's WAY worse, I think!
But it did get to the point where I was just sick of feeling that way. There was no way I was going to end it, so I figured I needed to just start looking at the brighter side! There's still shadows, but I do see the sun :)

Miss Organizized said...

No I agree...bottling things up solves nothing!! Like I sort of pushed away getting over John in those first few months and it came back to bite me later on when I realized I should've taken the time to face THOSE demons. In any case, we're all on the road to recovery!! And hopefully the sunny positivity will replace the upcoming sunless days we're facing :\