Home Cookin'
Tim made a yummy dinner of grilled chicken, tatos and veggies!
Social Butterflies
Sunday
Since I slept over at Katie's (for the first time!) I walked down the street to Buckley's to meet my mom for my birthday Brunch! My mom had the quiche and I had the crab eggs bennie. We each had a mimosa and it was just a gorgeous relaxing Sunday morning in downtown Milwaukee as we sat outside enjoying the ambience.
Monday
Bowling league! Cameron was not there, and Colin was sick so the team suffered a little.
Tim = 150, 116, 120
Monica = 104, 115, 126
(I think...)
Friday
Katie came down to visit and we all went out for my birthday at Finn McCool's in Schaumburg. It was a beautiful night and we took over the entire patio! Thanks to all who came out. NO thanks to the waitress who burgled $60 >: (
Attendees:
Me, Tim, Katie, Ellen, Ashley/Andrew, Christine/Jason, Jaime+friend, Amy (not) Z., Amy Fabs, Steve/Anna, Billy/Jenn, Garry/Jacqui, Anthony, Brad
What a great turnout!!!!!!!!!!
Afterwards, Steve/Anna and Anthony came over and I busted out 325123531 photo albums!
Saturday (Monica w/Katie!)
We had a nice little Saturday planned!
Katie was here so first we had breakfast sammiches (eggs over hard, white cheddar, bacon or sausage on Everything bagels - SOOO YUM!) then she & I got gussied up and headed out to Arlington Heights for Colin's Premier of his piece, 'Nyad's Dream'. It was a free concert at the Metropolis concert hall and was sponsored by one of his Elgin Symphony donors! The performers was a trio of a cello, harp and flute. There was a cocktail reception at intermission., and then we had to cut out to head to
SHOW OF SHOWS!!!!!!
My drum corps, the Phantom Regiment's, home show!!!! It is something I have done every year except last year. I get to run into some of my old drum corps friends, supporters and staff who I have lost touch with, and take a trip down memory lane at Boylan High School and the overall atmosphere of drum corps. I get so nostalgic I nearly barf! But oh, that beer tent!! I can no longer make memories on the field - but that beer tent will always be there to make new memories!
Tim
While I was off doing all of that, Billy came over and they went to shoot pool across the street!
Humor
Something about "labia-course" at Finn McCool's. May need Tim or Katie to elaborate on that one...
Aww...That's Nice!
My birthday card from Tim!
[front]
My Wife...
She makes me want
to be a better man.
She challenges
and motivates me.
She makes me happy,
and I'd do anything to make her happy.
[inside]
She's you -
My incredible wife -
And I love you
With all my heart.
20-Second T.O.
When we went to bed Friday night, I sighed "our life sucks.." Not really trying to start a conversation - and I wasn't deeply upset, just blah. Just thinking about the stuff other people/couples are able to do and afford right now. It was entirely just an exasperation but Tim was very annoyed by it and called me out on my statement. I was super tired and just kept trying to get out of the conversation, which just made it worse.
Tuesday, June 24, 2008
WEEK #30: June 8-14, 2008
Home Cookin'
Well, it wasn't for Tim and me, but I made Magic Cookie Bars and Pickle Wraps for Chelsea's Bachelorette Party!
Social Butterflies
Monday
We began our bowling league at Hoffman Lanes just down the street with Colin & Cameron.
Monica = 114, 128, 116
Tim = 170, 183, 193
Saturday (Monica)
Chelsea's shower at Matty's - a beautiful morning!!! Then we stopped at my mom's so I could pick up my stuff, then I headed to Katie's to relax & get ready for the Bachelorette Party! The boat ride was cancelled due to alleged hail storms heading our way, which never showed up. So inside we moved the party indoors to Katie's apartment until after 9 or so and then we headed on out to Trinity!!! What a great idea and fun place to be! 3 nice size bars all connected, but all a little different. To anyone in Milwaukee - I recommend!!
We ended the night at some German bar - I have no idea what it was called. I was paralyzed in pain from my feet ;)
(Tim)
Tim had Anthony & Billy over for a little while playing video games.
Aww...That's Nice!
Tensions have been high, so on Friday we were emailing and Tim said to enjoy my weekend and to not think about him, us or our problems and just have fun.
Well, it wasn't for Tim and me, but I made Magic Cookie Bars and Pickle Wraps for Chelsea's Bachelorette Party!
Social Butterflies
Monday
We began our bowling league at Hoffman Lanes just down the street with Colin & Cameron.
Monica = 114, 128, 116
Tim = 170, 183, 193
Saturday (Monica)
Chelsea's shower at Matty's - a beautiful morning!!! Then we stopped at my mom's so I could pick up my stuff, then I headed to Katie's to relax & get ready for the Bachelorette Party! The boat ride was cancelled due to alleged hail storms heading our way, which never showed up. So inside we moved the party indoors to Katie's apartment until after 9 or so and then we headed on out to Trinity!!! What a great idea and fun place to be! 3 nice size bars all connected, but all a little different. To anyone in Milwaukee - I recommend!!
We ended the night at some German bar - I have no idea what it was called. I was paralyzed in pain from my feet ;)
(Tim)
Tim had Anthony & Billy over for a little while playing video games.
Aww...That's Nice!
Tensions have been high, so on Friday we were emailing and Tim said to enjoy my weekend and to not think about him, us or our problems and just have fun.
WEEK #29: June 1 - 7, 2008
Home Cookin'
Chicken & Spinach Pasta Bake!!! Recipe will be posted in my Monthly entry.
Social Butterflies
Sunday
We ran some errands and then stopped over by Pat & Lorie's to give them the picture frame I had engraved with Isabella, Nicolas and Bianca's names. Lorie was out with Isabella, so we just stayed for a little bit playing with Nicolas.
Wednesday
Tim's mom, John & the boys were at Coco Key water resort in nearby Arlington Heights, so they came out to have lunch with Tim. Tim went back to the hotel with them and played with Nick & Bob in the water park, etc.
Saturday
We went over to Garry & Jacqui's housewarming party. There was a long time of playing bags and then into the evening we all played Wii and Guitar Hero.
Humor
At Garry & Jacqui's, we had about 1/2hr worth of constant "That's what she said" comments.
20 Second T.O.
BOO! On the way home from Garry & Jacqui's...it started because when I stopped drinking, I hinted that "we" could be done drinking - assuming Tim would get the hint. Shortly after he asked if I wanted to leave. I said "no" (b/c I didn't want to leave, I just wanted to be done drinking), and the next thing I know Tim's got a beer in his hand. He wasn't drunk by any means, but when this whole driving thing happened a year and a half ago, it was sort of an "agreement" that he would stop drinking when I did since I had to always be the DD. That has failed several times (see most other 20 second TO's). So on the way home, I bought up the "agreement" which he had allegedly forgotten about.
Chicken & Spinach Pasta Bake!!! Recipe will be posted in my Monthly entry.
Social Butterflies
Sunday
We ran some errands and then stopped over by Pat & Lorie's to give them the picture frame I had engraved with Isabella, Nicolas and Bianca's names. Lorie was out with Isabella, so we just stayed for a little bit playing with Nicolas.
Wednesday
Tim's mom, John & the boys were at Coco Key water resort in nearby Arlington Heights, so they came out to have lunch with Tim. Tim went back to the hotel with them and played with Nick & Bob in the water park, etc.
Saturday
We went over to Garry & Jacqui's housewarming party. There was a long time of playing bags and then into the evening we all played Wii and Guitar Hero.
Humor
At Garry & Jacqui's, we had about 1/2hr worth of constant "That's what she said" comments.
20 Second T.O.
BOO! On the way home from Garry & Jacqui's...it started because when I stopped drinking, I hinted that "we" could be done drinking - assuming Tim would get the hint. Shortly after he asked if I wanted to leave. I said "no" (b/c I didn't want to leave, I just wanted to be done drinking), and the next thing I know Tim's got a beer in his hand. He wasn't drunk by any means, but when this whole driving thing happened a year and a half ago, it was sort of an "agreement" that he would stop drinking when I did since I had to always be the DD. That has failed several times (see most other 20 second TO's). So on the way home, I bought up the "agreement" which he had allegedly forgotten about.
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
WEEK #28: May 25-31, 2008
Home Cookin'
Again, Tim's been the cook!!! So it's pointless for us to wait for me to get home and then cook!
Social Butterflies
Sunday
Ellen's BBBQ - lots of food, Summer Shandy and Strongbow. The boys played bags while the girls played Wii bowling and tennis! Then the few of us who were left - Garry, Anthony, Tim, me, Ellen all played Wii Mario Kart.
Friday
I went to see 'Sex and the City' with Colin and his *friend* Brad!
Anthony came over to hang out with Tim, they went to Hooters then came back to our condo and we chatted for awhile and then they put on 'The Jerk' for a bit before Anthony went home.
20 Second T.O.
I was very on edge all week. On Thursday, I worked until 7pm and didn't answer my phone b/c I was so focused on what I was working on. Tim was very upset and started to get worried. So when I called him on my way home, I was immediately on the defensive. He ended up hanging up on me and when I got home, I went straight into the bedroom. He came in to talk and wonder why I was in there and I continued to be very defensive, so it turned into a big blowout fight about a whole bunch of other stuff. We remained apart until 'Lost' when I finally came out to apologize, but then we got into a very serious conversation that lasted over 1/2 hour. We didn't entirely make up at the end of it, but got to a point where we could just take a deep breath, move on and watch 'Lost.'
Aww...That's Nice
Tim gave me this card on our [now] unofficial 5 year anniversary before we left for dinner at Entourage and saw 'Indiana Jones 4':
[front] On Our Anniversary
[1st page] With Each Year, You Mean Even More to Me
[inside]
With each passing year, I realize that you matter more to me than anyone or anything else in this world.
Through all the little rituals of everyday living and in times of stress or problems, your presence is my comfort, my joy, my stabalizing force.
You're always there for me, and I intend to always be here for you...
appreciating you and loving you with all my heart.
Happy Anniversary
[end]
A card like that couldn't have come at a better time!!!
Again, Tim's been the cook!!! So it's pointless for us to wait for me to get home and then cook!
Social Butterflies
Sunday
Ellen's BBBQ - lots of food, Summer Shandy and Strongbow. The boys played bags while the girls played Wii bowling and tennis! Then the few of us who were left - Garry, Anthony, Tim, me, Ellen all played Wii Mario Kart.
Friday
I went to see 'Sex and the City' with Colin and his *friend* Brad!
Anthony came over to hang out with Tim, they went to Hooters then came back to our condo and we chatted for awhile and then they put on 'The Jerk' for a bit before Anthony went home.
20 Second T.O.
I was very on edge all week. On Thursday, I worked until 7pm and didn't answer my phone b/c I was so focused on what I was working on. Tim was very upset and started to get worried. So when I called him on my way home, I was immediately on the defensive. He ended up hanging up on me and when I got home, I went straight into the bedroom. He came in to talk and wonder why I was in there and I continued to be very defensive, so it turned into a big blowout fight about a whole bunch of other stuff. We remained apart until 'Lost' when I finally came out to apologize, but then we got into a very serious conversation that lasted over 1/2 hour. We didn't entirely make up at the end of it, but got to a point where we could just take a deep breath, move on and watch 'Lost.'
Aww...That's Nice
Tim gave me this card on our [now] unofficial 5 year anniversary before we left for dinner at Entourage and saw 'Indiana Jones 4':
[front] On Our Anniversary
[1st page] With Each Year, You Mean Even More to Me
[inside]
With each passing year, I realize that you matter more to me than anyone or anything else in this world.
Through all the little rituals of everyday living and in times of stress or problems, your presence is my comfort, my joy, my stabalizing force.
You're always there for me, and I intend to always be here for you...
appreciating you and loving you with all my heart.
Happy Anniversary
[end]
A card like that couldn't have come at a better time!!!
WEEK #27: May 18 - 24, 2008
Home Cookin'
Well, since Tim lost his job he's been the "cook" lately. It's been great coming home to dinner on the table. And although he doesn't really do *recipes, the meals are yummy!!
Social Butterflies
Saturday
7-10 Lanes in Elmhurst with Billy/Jenn and Guido/Sarah. We just had a drink and bowled one game and that was about it! But it was a nice halfway point for everyone to meet up.
Humor
Guido bowls weird...He does some crazy hop skip jump when he releases. So we all had a pretty good time with that ;)
Aww...That's Nice!
After the *meh-ness of the day before (at Tim's dad's house - see previous post), we went out to Brunch at La Strada for our 6-month anniversary. We had a very nice time and just stayed away from the negative issues and enjoyed each other's company.
20-Second T.O.
Yikes, can't really explain just a one. It was sorta constant meh-ness through the week. No specific blow-out though.
Well, since Tim lost his job he's been the "cook" lately. It's been great coming home to dinner on the table. And although he doesn't really do *recipes, the meals are yummy!!
Social Butterflies
Saturday
7-10 Lanes in Elmhurst with Billy/Jenn and Guido/Sarah. We just had a drink and bowled one game and that was about it! But it was a nice halfway point for everyone to meet up.
Humor
Guido bowls weird...He does some crazy hop skip jump when he releases. So we all had a pretty good time with that ;)
Aww...That's Nice!
After the *meh-ness of the day before (at Tim's dad's house - see previous post), we went out to Brunch at La Strada for our 6-month anniversary. We had a very nice time and just stayed away from the negative issues and enjoyed each other's company.
20-Second T.O.
Yikes, can't really explain just a one. It was sorta constant meh-ness through the week. No specific blow-out though.
Friday, June 13, 2008
Dreams...
I always have very vivid dreams and I've actually always enjoyed it and how well I remember them in the morning! Some are so vivid and realistic they stick with me for an entire day as I have to convince myself it was an actual dream.
Needless to say I have a very developed unconscious psyche. Normally only I can dissect my dreams as they are specific to my life. I dream of being back in drum corps, while engaged I dreamt of my wedding day - both with weird random mishaps occuring that usually turned out to just be a funny way showing my stress.
I rarely have the drowning or naked in school or falling dreams that you can google definitions for...Until the past week or two. At first when I had the following dream I didn't think much of it until this morning when it occurred to me that this same dream scene has occured in at least 3 of my dreams in the past week. Typically I am having another dream (random non-descript, one was a drum corps dream) and then this scene pops in.
The dream goes like this:
I'm driving at night down a parkway - with trees/park on either side [Milwaukeeans, imagine something like the Root River Parkway]. There is always a large amount of traffic too and intersections.
What happens is that I am either driving fast and reckless - faster than I've ever driven in real life OR I fall asleep behind the wheel OR I'm just completely not paying attention and not looking straight ahead.
I end up having to swerve away from oncoming traffic and slam on my breaks which makes my car spin and skid out of control off the road. But in real life, I'd think the car would just tip over or stop once it was on grass- but mine doesn't. I continue to skid sideways having absolutely no control over the car and I am just bracing myself for a crash or something. But I don't really know how it ends. I dont' know if I can't remember the end, or my dream doesn't have an end. It's always as if I'm about to go into a river or off a cliff --but I don't see said river or cliff, it's just that is what I'm bracing myself for.
Pretty intense, right? Well, this morning I decided to google it since I thought it might fall into the "typical dream" definitions. And here's what I found.....WOW.
Are you dreaming about an out of control car, a car crash, a car wreck or other similar topic? Here is what it means.
Cars are vehicles that you normally should have control over. They're not like a plane or train, where someone with years of training and education is in control of. Cars are normal vehicles that you should be able to drive yourself, that you use every day to get your normal life tasks done. For that reason, a car very much represents your life in a dream. It represents your normal day to day activities, the way that your life is progressing.
If you dream that YOU are driving that car and are losing control or have an accident, it means that you don't like the way your life is turning out. You wish that you were making wiser choices, that you were better able to deal with the normal traumas life is throwing at you. You need to find the strength to grab that wheel and handle the turns and slippery situations.
Projecting car accident and partially your fault symbolize some blame conscience you have. You may be feeling low in self confidence. That accident may also indicate you have made some bad choice in life and you are blaming yourself. It is all about your guilt conscience you have in reality.
That is 100% on the nose. And it is scary that I could be so textbook. I guess ya never really feel anything or go through something someone else hasn't already felt or gone through. Maybe it shouldn't be such a lonely feeling....
Needless to say I have a very developed unconscious psyche. Normally only I can dissect my dreams as they are specific to my life. I dream of being back in drum corps, while engaged I dreamt of my wedding day - both with weird random mishaps occuring that usually turned out to just be a funny way showing my stress.
I rarely have the drowning or naked in school or falling dreams that you can google definitions for...Until the past week or two. At first when I had the following dream I didn't think much of it until this morning when it occurred to me that this same dream scene has occured in at least 3 of my dreams in the past week. Typically I am having another dream (random non-descript, one was a drum corps dream) and then this scene pops in.
The dream goes like this:
I'm driving at night down a parkway - with trees/park on either side [Milwaukeeans, imagine something like the Root River Parkway]. There is always a large amount of traffic too and intersections.
What happens is that I am either driving fast and reckless - faster than I've ever driven in real life OR I fall asleep behind the wheel OR I'm just completely not paying attention and not looking straight ahead.
I end up having to swerve away from oncoming traffic and slam on my breaks which makes my car spin and skid out of control off the road. But in real life, I'd think the car would just tip over or stop once it was on grass- but mine doesn't. I continue to skid sideways having absolutely no control over the car and I am just bracing myself for a crash or something. But I don't really know how it ends. I dont' know if I can't remember the end, or my dream doesn't have an end. It's always as if I'm about to go into a river or off a cliff --but I don't see said river or cliff, it's just that is what I'm bracing myself for.
Pretty intense, right? Well, this morning I decided to google it since I thought it might fall into the "typical dream" definitions. And here's what I found.....WOW.
Are you dreaming about an out of control car, a car crash, a car wreck or other similar topic? Here is what it means.
Cars are vehicles that you normally should have control over. They're not like a plane or train, where someone with years of training and education is in control of. Cars are normal vehicles that you should be able to drive yourself, that you use every day to get your normal life tasks done. For that reason, a car very much represents your life in a dream. It represents your normal day to day activities, the way that your life is progressing.
If you dream that YOU are driving that car and are losing control or have an accident, it means that you don't like the way your life is turning out. You wish that you were making wiser choices, that you were better able to deal with the normal traumas life is throwing at you. You need to find the strength to grab that wheel and handle the turns and slippery situations.
Projecting car accident and partially your fault symbolize some blame conscience you have. You may be feeling low in self confidence. That accident may also indicate you have made some bad choice in life and you are blaming yourself. It is all about your guilt conscience you have in reality.
That is 100% on the nose. And it is scary that I could be so textbook. I guess ya never really feel anything or go through something someone else hasn't already felt or gone through. Maybe it shouldn't be such a lonely feeling....
Wednesday, June 11, 2008
MONTH #6 continued...
Marriage Epiphany
This is something I guess I've always known about myself in my relationship with Tim. But it took until now to really take a step back and think about why I do this, and what it says about me and my feelings.
Whenever an issue arises with Tim, or something relationship-related gets me down, my mind automatically drifts back to the other big issues we've stumbled over in the past. Healthy or not - I'm not really sure.
It certainly doesn't make the issue at hand any easier to get through. On the positive side, I look at how we made it through issues before - and I reaffirm myself that "we can make it through anything."
I try to see what I didn't get out of the last problem-resolving process or what worked for me/us last time and I should continue to do.
This time, I've realized I need something I never thought I needed before - just me. Before when an issue would smack us in the face, I thought everything should be worked out together. Thoughts constantly shared and if I was feeling something - or had more thoughts on it days later, I wanted Tim to hear about it and help me feel better by answering whatever bothered me or just to get it off my chest.
But now, I just want to bury myself in my own thoughts until I'm over them on my own - and not just because I want to be, but because I truly am. I have no idea how long this will take. It's already been over an month! I realized in the five years we've been together - this is the most inconvenient time to need 'alone time'. But it's what I need and what I've never given myself. Now it's not like i'm ignoring Tim - we still carry on as normal at home - just at arm's length, and he is certainly walking on egg shells.
Some days I see a little light at the tunnel, of being able to see myself happy and feel happy. But the next day I'll think of something that just really aggravates me and I'm back to being unhappy. That's why the days I feel a little more optimistic - I'm not celebrating it, because I am aware two days later I could be right back in the clouds again. I don't want that yo-yo emotional journey. So when several days go by and I am consistently feeling optimistic and/or happy, then I will let my guard down and let Tim back in.
Right now it's just not the time yet.
Payback's a bitch...
This is something I guess I've always known about myself in my relationship with Tim. But it took until now to really take a step back and think about why I do this, and what it says about me and my feelings.
Whenever an issue arises with Tim, or something relationship-related gets me down, my mind automatically drifts back to the other big issues we've stumbled over in the past. Healthy or not - I'm not really sure.
It certainly doesn't make the issue at hand any easier to get through. On the positive side, I look at how we made it through issues before - and I reaffirm myself that "we can make it through anything."
I try to see what I didn't get out of the last problem-resolving process or what worked for me/us last time and I should continue to do.
This time, I've realized I need something I never thought I needed before - just me. Before when an issue would smack us in the face, I thought everything should be worked out together. Thoughts constantly shared and if I was feeling something - or had more thoughts on it days later, I wanted Tim to hear about it and help me feel better by answering whatever bothered me or just to get it off my chest.
But now, I just want to bury myself in my own thoughts until I'm over them on my own - and not just because I want to be, but because I truly am. I have no idea how long this will take. It's already been over an month! I realized in the five years we've been together - this is the most inconvenient time to need 'alone time'. But it's what I need and what I've never given myself. Now it's not like i'm ignoring Tim - we still carry on as normal at home - just at arm's length, and he is certainly walking on egg shells.
Some days I see a little light at the tunnel, of being able to see myself happy and feel happy. But the next day I'll think of something that just really aggravates me and I'm back to being unhappy. That's why the days I feel a little more optimistic - I'm not celebrating it, because I am aware two days later I could be right back in the clouds again. I don't want that yo-yo emotional journey. So when several days go by and I am consistently feeling optimistic and/or happy, then I will let my guard down and let Tim back in.
Right now it's just not the time yet.
Payback's a bitch...
Wednesday, June 4, 2008
MONTH # 6: April 18 - May 17, 2008
MoniKitchen
Katie's Southwestern Crab Bake recipe as seen below. We had the leftovers in tortillas and it was even better!
Will You Go Out With Me?
Tuesday, April 29
We went out to BW3's after work and watched a bit of the Cubs game then went to see 'Forgetting Sarah Marshall'
That's Hilaarious
'Applebottom Pebs' was the ongoing joke for the month. We'd hear the "Low" song on the radio and I'd make tim sing his *lyrics at the chorus: "She's and Applebottom Pebs...with the FUR....She's got Colby Jack looking at HUR"
Good Talk
Well, we had two doozies this month!
Wednesday May 7
I had to get some thoughts off my *chest* to Tim. Basically just how I started regretting how I had handled our difficult times in the past. Tim was very put off by everything I was saying. Fearing that what I was trying to communicate was that it was a huge mistake to get married. That wasn't my point, because I am pretty sure no matter what we'd probably end up together in the end, anyway. Journey vs. Destination and I'm more concerned about the Journey right now. Tim said some very strong things about proving himself, being a great husband and doing whatever it takes to give us the life we want.
Saturday May 17
The second chat was on our way home from his dad's - it's actually more in the 20-Second T.O. category. It was the day after Tim lost his job and it really hit me hard. He did get angry, but again said very strong things. But for now, this is just something I really need to get over on my own.
Recap
Well, this month was pretty intense. One of the hardest we've been through in our five years together. It started with our weekend apart, then into my heavy reminiscing and re-thinking my life - namely the way I've handled this relationship and the issues it has dropped on my shoulders. Reminiscin morphed into reacting to the loss of tim's job which has basically sent me into a tailspin.
Katie's Southwestern Crab Bake recipe as seen below. We had the leftovers in tortillas and it was even better!
Will You Go Out With Me?
Tuesday, April 29
We went out to BW3's after work and watched a bit of the Cubs game then went to see 'Forgetting Sarah Marshall'
That's Hilaarious
'Applebottom Pebs' was the ongoing joke for the month. We'd hear the "Low" song on the radio and I'd make tim sing his *lyrics at the chorus: "She's and Applebottom Pebs...with the FUR....She's got Colby Jack looking at HUR"
Good Talk
Well, we had two doozies this month!
Wednesday May 7
I had to get some thoughts off my *chest* to Tim. Basically just how I started regretting how I had handled our difficult times in the past. Tim was very put off by everything I was saying. Fearing that what I was trying to communicate was that it was a huge mistake to get married. That wasn't my point, because I am pretty sure no matter what we'd probably end up together in the end, anyway. Journey vs. Destination and I'm more concerned about the Journey right now. Tim said some very strong things about proving himself, being a great husband and doing whatever it takes to give us the life we want.
Saturday May 17
The second chat was on our way home from his dad's - it's actually more in the 20-Second T.O. category. It was the day after Tim lost his job and it really hit me hard. He did get angry, but again said very strong things. But for now, this is just something I really need to get over on my own.
Recap
Well, this month was pretty intense. One of the hardest we've been through in our five years together. It started with our weekend apart, then into my heavy reminiscing and re-thinking my life - namely the way I've handled this relationship and the issues it has dropped on my shoulders. Reminiscin morphed into reacting to the loss of tim's job which has basically sent me into a tailspin.
Sunday, June 1, 2008
WEEK #26: May 11 - 17, 2008
Home Cookin'
Katie's Southwestern Crab bake!!! Yum!!! A meal we ate again Thursday night in tortillas!
Social Butterflies
Sunday
-Izabela's Baptism (Szymon's daughter)
An hour and a half-long Polish Catholic mass followed by dinner at Maggiano's! Garry & Jacqui were there too.
-Tim's Mom's for Mom's Day! We just stopped over to say hi since we were nearby. We gave her a card and the Parent's Album from our wedding.
Saturday
-Tim's dad's
We drove up to Grayslake for a made-up Mother's Day. Grandma & Grandpa O'Neill were also there. we brought the wedding album, the Hawaii honeymoon scrapbook and their Parent album. They grilled burgers, etc. and we drove over to see their new house. They bought a foreclosure and fixed it up to move on in!!
-Garry's
That night I just wanted to be alone, so Anthony picked Tim up and they went over to Garry's and played Wii, etc for a few hours at their new house.
Humor
We randomly watched an episode of "The Office" where Michael drives into the lake b/c he misunderstands the GPS directions. I've seen the episode before but this time I was DYING! Then that made Tim laugh :)
Awww...That's Nice
Well, this is tough since it was a very hard week for us. I'm having major issues with our current situation. Through this, tim has said reassuring and sweet things about being 100% committed to making our life better, etc but for now it is falling on deaf ears.
20-Second T.O.
How about a weeklong!? I was very self-centered this week, so I was either very cold or I was expressing my unhappiness. So either Tim had to rool over and take it or become defensive. Lose-lose situation.
It escalated on our drive home from his dad's after sitting with them for 6 hours and listening to them discuss the sugar coating of how he's been 'blessed' with this 'opportunity' of losing his job. I am not optimistic and won't be until there's something to believe in. Like ONE interview or something.
Katie's Southwestern Crab bake!!! Yum!!! A meal we ate again Thursday night in tortillas!
Social Butterflies
Sunday
-Izabela's Baptism (Szymon's daughter)
An hour and a half-long Polish Catholic mass followed by dinner at Maggiano's! Garry & Jacqui were there too.
-Tim's Mom's for Mom's Day! We just stopped over to say hi since we were nearby. We gave her a card and the Parent's Album from our wedding.
Saturday
-Tim's dad's
We drove up to Grayslake for a made-up Mother's Day. Grandma & Grandpa O'Neill were also there. we brought the wedding album, the Hawaii honeymoon scrapbook and their Parent album. They grilled burgers, etc. and we drove over to see their new house. They bought a foreclosure and fixed it up to move on in!!
-Garry's
That night I just wanted to be alone, so Anthony picked Tim up and they went over to Garry's and played Wii, etc for a few hours at their new house.
Humor
We randomly watched an episode of "The Office" where Michael drives into the lake b/c he misunderstands the GPS directions. I've seen the episode before but this time I was DYING! Then that made Tim laugh :)
Awww...That's Nice
Well, this is tough since it was a very hard week for us. I'm having major issues with our current situation. Through this, tim has said reassuring and sweet things about being 100% committed to making our life better, etc but for now it is falling on deaf ears.
20-Second T.O.
How about a weeklong!? I was very self-centered this week, so I was either very cold or I was expressing my unhappiness. So either Tim had to rool over and take it or become defensive. Lose-lose situation.
It escalated on our drive home from his dad's after sitting with them for 6 hours and listening to them discuss the sugar coating of how he's been 'blessed' with this 'opportunity' of losing his job. I am not optimistic and won't be until there's something to believe in. Like ONE interview or something.
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